DanceItUp

An optimistic view on Valentine’s Day

Growing up I loved Valentine’s Day. The little mini cards to hand out to classmates, decorating a box and having a contest in class to see who won the craziest box contest, the candy (oh my goodness the candy!).  It was just all fun and games and was all around cute. I especially enjoyed picking out cards individually for each classmate and trying to discreetly give a certain card to a guy I had a crush on each year in hopes that he would get the hint and like me back.  Oh the things we’ll do as a child!

As you get older, Valentine’s Day takes on a whole new meaning and, quite frankly, a lot more stress. Suddenly it goes from little fun cards with holograms on them to singing telegrams to the person you like. Then it graduated to being expected to be with someone on the day and getting them flowers and chocolate, which I find rather silly really.  I mean if you’re going to give the person you like something, be a little bit more creative. Yes girls like flowers, but do something cute and original too!  Anyways, the older you get, the greater the pressure.  It grows into a day to celebrate love, and if you’re single, it’s a day to drink and be depressed that you’re single.

Most years, I am on the side of being single, so I drink and be depressed that I’m single. There has only been one year that I have been in a relationship on Valentine’s Day, and I’m pretty sure I was drinking then too. It has never been my favorite holiday by any means, and one that I only look forward to for the cheap candy afterwards and the cute heart decorated merchandise.  Until this year.

After my recent breakup, I promised God that I would spend six months minimum single for Him, growing in my relationship with Him. It wasn’t until today that I realized that I am already in a relationship. When I told God I wasn’t going to date for six months, it was then that I entered into a relationship with Him.  God pursued me much like I desire my future husband to, and he won my heart over.  When I entered into that relationship w/ God, I gave Him my heart, though He already knew its desires.

God’s love for us is immaculate, beautiful, everlasting, marvelous, overwhelming, extravagant, unending, the list goes on and on. God loved us so much He gave His only son to die for us.  Now that is AMAZING love!!!  Let me ask….have you ever been in a relationship where someone would willingly die for you after just one date?  Jesus died for us before we even accepted Him and entered into a relationship with Him.  Now that is the kind of love that I want.

So this Valentine’s Day I made a decision. I was not going to dwell on the fact that I was single and drink my sorrows away, because I’d waste a day that I could’ve spent living for God and then I’d wake up in the morning and I’d still be single. I decided to praise the fact that I am currently in the best relationship I could ask for. I decided to praise the fact that I am loved more than I could ever imagine. I decided to, rather than dwell on the face that I’m not dating someone right now, praise God that I know that He will bring me someone that He wants me to be with in His time, in His perfect time. At that time, I know God will orchestrate the perfect relationship that both of us are committed to and we can worship God through.

I must say, my day was much better spent this year!

“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.”

                   Psalm 90:14

Realizations

So sitting here, I realized it’s been over a year since I posted to this.  While many of the people that were originally following me may not be on here anymore and may no longer pay attention to this site, I feel that doesn’t matter. I recently got reconnected with Tumblr by a coworker and am now thinking that it may be a good way to get out some pent up emotions. So hello again Tumblr, I am back.  And who knows, maybe I’ll turn this site into a way to not only promote my dance but my photography as well.  I feel the need to get on the dance floor again and choreograph something again tough, so we’ll see.

http://twitpic.com/tfxxp - What we do when were bored at work..draw on bags of cheese lol

had to go through the Taco Bell drivethru with her window frozen shut b/c of the snow….interesting

is really super upset that she can’t go to Vegas especially given the circumstances….everything happens for a reason i guess…